Dark Mirror

Ever encounter people in life who you just didn't like? Yeah, I think we all do. But has it ever happened when, looking at one of these people, you got the eerie feeling that you were looking into a kind of dark mirror? As if this person were somehow a dark reflection of yourself, with all your bad qualities amplified beyond all proportion, and all your good qualities stifled into oblivion?

I get that feeling sometimes. It's unsettling.

Dishonest. Insincere. Totally self-absorbed. Belittling of EVERYONE else but themselves. Arrogant. Insecure. Wont to say hurtful things and not ever notice (or care) how such comments affect others. Manipulative. Close-minded.

Had an unpleasant encounter today with someone with all of these aforementioned qualities. I'm not usually one for confrontations, but this time this person just went too far. Despite this person's protests to the contrary, I don't see how their comments could have been meant in any way but a malicous one. It was just rude.

Then again, I've found this person to be rude overall. And it's not just me - others have also commented on this as well.

And yet, sometimes, I get this strange feeling... this feeling that maybe there isn't all that much difference between me and them. That maybe, it's all just a matter of degree. I mean, I like to kid around. I poke fun at others, and myself. I can be stubborn at times, and contrary. So I ask myself, here and now - am I as deluded as this person? Am I as unaware of my actions, and how it might affect others? Am I like them?

That thought scares me. (-_-)

Why procrastinating is bad...and why I keep doing it anyway...

Procrastinating is bad, because when you keep putting things off, your have less time to get them done. And, as a result, you end up rushing around at the last minute, making yourself crazy trying to get them done in time.

Intellectually, I know this. And yet, over and over, every year, I still do it. Why? Sadly, I have no excuse. I get lazy, and put it off, again and again, just because I don't feel like doing it at that particular moment.

I have plenty of time, I tell myself. No need to worry about that now.

Yeah, right. Whatever.

So anyway, I'm finally working on getting ready for my trip. I've got a little more than a week to go now, and I'm still not ready. I still have a lot to get done. I managed to get a few things together - the toothpaste, the toothbrush, the shampoo, and stuff like that. Starting to think of which clothes I want to take, what notebooks to take with me, how much I think I'm going to spend, and all that kind of thing as well.

And just now I remembered that I forgot to get the insect repellent. Bleh, something to add to the "Do this before you leave, dummy" list. (>_<)

Ah well...so, off shopping again tomorrow. Hopefully I won't forget anything this time. (Doubtful, but...we'll see.)

But for right now, I think I'll go smack things around in FFXI. Just for a little bit. (^_^;)

First Entry

Okay, here we go...my first entry.

First off, hello, and welcome to Talathar's collection of rambling and random thoughts.

I'll be posting a few things here from time to time, just to keep myself (and maybe you) entertained.

Not a whole lot to say right now, but I'll think of stuff. Maybe. Hey, where are you going? No really, I can be clever. Honest.

Oh poo. Fine then, I'm stopping here. But I'll be back...just you wait. And I'll be funny too. Hopefully...err...I mean, of course I will be. Funny, that is. And back.

(^_^)